{Loving Me in 2019}- I’m Here!

Loving Me in 2019. Join me each month in 2019 as I indulge in a new-to-me life experience with the goal of self improvement and self care.
For more information on this series {Loving Me in 2019} Introduction


 

Wow, these past 6-8 months have been a whirlwind of emotions! It. Has. Been. TOUGH! But also amazing, great, sad, empowering, and just plain blah.

As most of you know I started 2019 with wanting to do a self care & self love journey each month and blog about it. Well it was great the first month, and then I didn’t proceed with the blogging, but that didn’t mean I wasn’t practicing self care. My self care, in a way, was to not worry myself with the deadlines I put on myself, and let things be…. along with many other things I practiced for self care.

The “no babies” blues 😦

I want to start this off by mentioning the bad things first, because I want to end on a positive note. Postpartum Depression is terrible. I didn’t know I would get it after miscarrying my twins. I didn’t even know it was even possible to get postpartum without actually having a baby to full term. It still comes in waves, but I am thankfully getting more and more longer periods of happy days, and that is a plus. I am thankful for my faith, family, friends, and Plexus supplements that have truly helped me on this journey that unfortunately has been rough on me.

Will the terrifying thoughts go away?

I’m going to be completely open with you guys and tell you that thinking of being pregnant or having a baby right now is absolutely terrifying. It is upsetting to think of the thing I wanted so much, has now flipped and it is the thing I want the least right now, and not because I don’t want children, but because I feel all the emotions again, the happiness, and the pain, horror, and numbness. I do know that I will heal with time, and if I were to get pregnant I would be fine, but just in this moment right now, it is hard for me to not be nervous.

Actually WORKING my business!

In February I remember praying and asking God to help direct and guide me in what steps I need to take for my network marketing business, and thanked Him for what He was already preparing for me. Boy did He guide me. My business has been blessed, and the people in it are a blessing to me, and I am so thankful for His guidance.

– I’ve invested in myself and have taken some amazing training from a well known coach.
– I’ve had a mindset change, and KNOW this is what I am supposed to be doing, and I am NOT sorry for it.
– I pray daily thanking God for sending me people that need these products, and/or the business.
-I WORK my business. No one can expect to get their business or anything they do blessed if they do not work at it. Bible verses for reference:

The LORD will open the heavens, the storehouse of his bounty, to send rain on your land in season and to bless all the work of your hands. You will lend to many nations but will borrow from none. Deuteronomy 28:12 NIV

Then the LORD your God will make you most prosperous in all the work of your hands and in the fruit of your womb, the young of your livestock and the crops of your land. The LORD will again delight in you and make you prosperous, just as he delighted in your fathers, if you obey the LORD your God and keep his commands and decrees that are written in this Book of the Law and turn to the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul. Deuteronomy 30:9-10 NIV

One who is slack in his work is brother to one who destroys. Proverbs 18:9 NIV

In July we had our convention for my company in Las Vegas. It was amazing and the leadership we have in our company and the training is top notch, so I was very thankful to be able to experience this for third time. While there they announced the date and the location of our next convention and at that moment I started to tear up. I was tearing up because I know that God had laid on my heart a vision of where I will be with this company during the 2020 convention in Nashville, and it was overwhelming. God is amazing and He truly loves us.

What’s next?

I feel a big shift is about to come, in my spiritual, personal and professional life. I am not sure how to describe it other than I feel things will be different. I’m going to proclaim that it is going to be good, and good for me, because God is for me, not against me. Things may be hard, and it may be difficult for me to understand what is happening, but I know that eventually things will be ok.

I’d like to say I have my life planned out, and I know what will happen tomorrow, or in 5 months. I clearly don’t. I am trying to learn to let go and see what happens. Don’t get me wrong… I am not just sitting around doing nothing, but just to let go of the things I can’t control and move forward. After all… We aren’t going back , so why not surrender the past, and be in the present, and move forward!


Please join me in my journey for self care by following and doing your own self care/ self love routine.  Use the hashtag #lovingmein19.  Can’t wait to see your posts as we go through 2019 together. ❤ ❤ 

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